Lonelyness is coming closer...

I began to walk through some tears, trying to find answers for all the questions that were screaming in my head. Lonelyness was coming with the wind that caresses me as if it where iced cotton. I stopped at a quite park, the one that saw me crying a few times. Looking up to the sky something came to my mind, I turned around to tell you, but I realized you weren't beside me anymore. The memory of that empty space which was difficult to fill, was coming true again. I expected it would delay a few weeks or months, but it just come into without any advertisement. I kept on walking...I won't deny there were some men staring at me and saying "nice things". But, I wonder if any of them would offer me at least half of everything you wanted to give me, if they would understand me, just like you, or love me in the same way you do.
Finally, it dawned on me, you made me happy. As my mother had once told me "every decision you've made is wrong". One more time she was right. I did my best to make a good choice but it didn't do at all. I was wrong once again. But now I've already spoiled all and it's too late to get back to the past.